Welp. Purged today. I came home and ate my vegan meal (begrudgingly, I wasn't even hungry) then started craving meat. Like, some sort of red meat, pepperoni sticks or something. Brain fogged out. Inst
For some reason, I feel amazing today. Richard came by to visit. Maybe that is why. I was so disgruntled this morning because of Evan... he just doesn't seem to get it. Anyways, work was good. Slow, b
April 2nd, 2020. Tried killing myself via helium tank and exit bag. It didn't work; I told a friend. She brought me home then called an ambulance. I was very upset and resentful towards her for that.